beaut lies

 

I'm not gonna lie about my

last sip of wine or

how far away I am from

where I should be. 

I'm not gonna lie about 

how much I wish to redo everything over

so that I'll be 3 steps closer to

what I call home, maybe.

I'm not gonna lie about 

just how much I'm not okay and

how I'll never be okay because

everything else isn't.

I'm not gonna lie about

how incomplete I'm still feeling,

be it all I can hear is your heartbeat 

when the radio's off.

 Day by day I lied, though,

about how everything will soon be fine

but that day never came and

now I'm just gonna call it a day.



wasn't my fav day.
things jst nv go my way,
not even in the right way it should b.
 I jst couldn't understand hw life's always unfair all the time;
some ppl jst have things happening in their lives while
some others wished a lot more but ended up with nth.

I'm tired of always trying & failing.
I'm sick of how my life is now.
I'm in my prime, this shouldn't b the way.
I need a breakthrough, jst give me a breakthrough,
I swear I'll be gud.